It’s hard to explain the power of an anxiety disorder. It overtakes your mind and flows through your entire body. There can be something as simple as a slight change in my routine and BOOM, panic attack.
The thoughts start. This isn’t what I usually do. How do I handle this change of plans?? What do I do next? Then the physical attack starts. My heart is racing. Am I having a heart attack? I think I’m dying. I can’t breathe. Oh my gosh, I can’t swallow. Seriously, my throat isn’t working …. I’m going to suffocate. I’m going to pass out.
That’s just a small sample of a panic attack. You can tell me I wasn’t ACTUALLY having a heart attack and I wasn’t REALLY dying. Yeah that’s probably true, but what was happening was VERY real. Sooooo many times I find myself gasping for air because I literally cannot swallow or breathe. It’s real, it’s scary, and it leaves me in nothing but a mess.
There are ways to cope with GAD – Generalized Anxiety Disorder. Its not a death sentence even though feels like I’m going to die sometimes.
For ppl without anxiety, don’t ever underestimate its power. If you know someone who is struggling, don’t tell them that they are fine, just hold their hand and tell them that they will make it through. What works best for me is when my hubby looks directly in my eyes, hands on my shoulders and guides me through some deep breathing. Despite pushing him away and even yelling and screaming at him sometimes, he doesn’t turn and walk away and leave me alone. So don’t you do that either. Anxiety is real. The suffering is intense. Just be patient and never walk away, even if they scream in your face.
We need you.