A Crisis Situation


I have fallen apart. I can honestly say that at this point, this hour, this minute, in this night ….. I am a risk to myself.

My thoughts are raging out of control. I have not self injured in years but if you would consider “accidentally” pulling your IV out of your own arm because you so desperately need to hurt yourself and cause pain and blood WITHOUT it looking like an act of self harm. Yeah. I did that.

My mind is RAGING and I am afraid ….. of myself. I CANNOT tell them about this …. I REFUSE to be hospitalized in GF on 2E. I can’t go where I will have different doctors treating me. I need MY OWN psychiatrist that’s HERE to look after me.

I just don’t know what to do. I have no meds available to take. No worries. It doesn’t help anyways. I’m in a private room which makes things easier to do but I have nothing to use …….




About Secret Stains

I wanna do something that matters, say something different, something that sets the whole world on it's ear. i wanna do something better with the time I've been given and I wanna try to touch a few hearts in this life to prove I was here. I apologize if I seem absent minded sometimes. Sometimes I forget I'm still awake and say things out loud. Inside I am beginning to burst at the seams. There are so many secrets ... so many scars ... so many stains. This is me. Welcome to my world.
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