I Hurt

youdontlooksick

I often hear “you don’t look sick” but the truth is that every day I struggle really hard to pass as normal.  I have to rest before going out anywhere and I have to take my pain meds at certain times that are based on each day’s activities. Sometimes I hurt so much and am so tired from trying to act as if I am healthy that I feel like curling up with a blanket and just staying there, but I (usually) hold it in and fight against it. Until I’m behind the closed doors of my home. That’s when I crumble under the weight of the pain that is eating away at my body, day in and day out. So, I don’t look sick you say? Good to know – that obviously you don’t know me at all.

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About Secret Stains

I wanna do something that matters, say something different, something that sets the whole world on it's ear. i wanna do something better with the time I've been given and I wanna try to touch a few hearts in this life to prove I was here. I apologize if I seem absent minded sometimes. Sometimes I forget I'm still awake and say things out loud. Inside I am beginning to burst at the seams. There are so many secrets ... so many scars ... so many stains. This is me. Welcome to my world.
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3 Responses to I Hurt

  1. Marian says:

    Yes, yes, yes. And *hugs*

    Liked by 1 person

  2. Gretiana says:

    Society expects so much from us, and then we crumble under the weight of its expectations. We don’t even have the right to feel the way we feel.

    Liked by 1 person

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