Is Freedom From Bulimia Truly Possible?

Having a history of an eating disorder is making this journey to a healthier, lighter me is proving to be very difficult. I’m being very careful to avoid restricting but the only familiar voices won’t let up. I’ve done well with my recovery these past few years but I’m quickly learning that I will never truly be free from those demons. 


About Secret Stains

I wanna do something that matters, say something different, something that sets the whole world on it's ear. i wanna do something better with the time I've been given and I wanna try to touch a few hearts in this life to prove I was here. I apologize if I seem absent minded sometimes. Sometimes I forget I'm still awake and say things out loud. Inside I am beginning to burst at the seams. There are so many secrets ... so many scars ... so many stains. This is me. Welcome to my world.
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5 Responses to Is Freedom From Bulimia Truly Possible?

  1. Hmmm, I don’t know how to begin. I guess I’ll start by saying that I’ve been in recovery from Anorexia (restrictive) for 48 years now…it’s hard. Although I rarely actually restrict now, the anxiety around eating is ever-present. I still compulsively count calories. Every once in a while I binge, typically on ice cream, or potato chips, or even both 😜

    Really, both in my own life and for the many young people I’ve mentored with eating disorders, the most important thing I’ve learned, is that just like with any addiction, you’re always going to be in recovery. It’s a life long thing. It can be a struggle; or you can choose to accept it, accept yourself, and do your best. There will be times when you fall off the balance beam, but the important thing is to see it as just that, and don’t let the devil get you down! (Kind of a joke, but not so much.) In other words, just because you had to let go of the reins for an hour or a day doesn’t make you a bad person. It doesn’t mean you failed, or that it’s going to blow your whole eating plan. It just means you had to scratch an itch. Now your itch is scratched for another week, month, or year. One eating disorders expert I know even recommends PLANNED vacations from “control!” His research shows that if someone picks a day, let’s say Saturday, that they can go off their controlled eating plan, they actually are able to stick with their plan better, because they know come Saturday they can eat all the ice cream and potato chips they want! If they want. You’ll notice that I never use the word “diet.” That’s a trigger word for most people with eating disorders. I use the word “plan,” because it’s neutral and purposeful.
    And if a specific eating plan just doesn’t feel right for you, choose a different one. Don’t hang onto something that’s going to trigger you. But do know that eating disorders don’t go away, although they may fade into the background the longer you’re in recovery. Wishing you the best 👍🌻🌷🌞

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  2. Yes!!! Freedom is possible! I’m free … It can be done!

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