The Struggle. Its Much Too Real

Well, my journey to the land of the healthy living is still going strong. For the month of May I lost 15 pounds. I need to get someone to help me update my measurements. We are now 10 days into the month of June and things are pretty steady. I’m finding there to be quite a lot more struggles lately that are becoming harder to overcome. And I have my mental illness to thank for that.

My moods have been very erratic this week. Moments of great productivity turn into hours of lying on the couch feeling nothing other than deep despair. I follow my meal plan for a while without any complaining but then my brain starts to sizzle and crackle as if it was a bowl of rice crispies and then it snaps and I gorge on whatever my husband happens to be eating at the time, which is usually something unhealthy. And I feel better.

Not really. I don’t want the food. What I want is to silence my brain. A long nights sleep may help. Tired. So. So. Tired.                                                                                                                                         2016-05-09 17.06.56


About Secret Stains

I wanna do something that matters, say something different, something that sets the whole world on it's ear. i wanna do something better with the time I've been given and I wanna try to touch a few hearts in this life to prove I was here. I apologize if I seem absent minded sometimes. Sometimes I forget I'm still awake and say things out loud. Inside I am beginning to burst at the seams. There are so many secrets ... so many scars ... so many stains. This is me. Welcome to my world.
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One Response to The Struggle. Its Much Too Real

  1. PattiP0414 says:

    YAY to still going strong!


    ❤ ❤

    Liked by 1 person

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