Anxiety Strikes Again 

Taking a breather. We came to Gander this evening intending to park and listen to the gospel concert that they were having in the town square but thundershowers made they change their location to the Salvation Army church. So that’s where we are, along with many other people all packed in. 
Anyways my anxiety took over so here I am sitting in the car with the air conditioning on, trying to get my heart rate to go down. 

Anxiety really sucks. Especially when I’m surrounded by people and my heart starts beating really fast and I can feel it pulsing all over my body. My vision gets all weird and I can’t focus clearly on anything. I’m sweating all over, it runs down and drips off my eyebrows. I have often sweat more during an attack than I have during a cardio workout. Add in the quick, shallow breaths that most often turns into full blown hyperventilating and there you have it. 

Me. 

Right now. 

Sitting in my car. Alone. 

In the church parking lot. 

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About Secret Stains

I wanna do something that matters, say something different, something that sets the whole world on it's ear. i wanna do something better with the time I've been given and I wanna try to touch a few hearts in this life to prove I was here. I apologize if I seem absent minded sometimes. Sometimes I forget I'm still awake and say things out loud. Inside I am beginning to burst at the seams. There are so many secrets ... so many scars ... so many stains. This is me. Welcome to my world.
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