In the midst of the times that I have tried to take my own life, I had no fear.
I was not afraid of dying.
I was not afraid of pain.
I was just not … afraid.
But today I find out that my health is really not that great. A couple of days ago I was diagnosed with pneumonia and sent for blood work and then today I get a phone call and I find out more bad news.
And now that a sudden death is a very real possibility, I am scared.
I’m afraid of dying.
I’m afraid of pain.
I am just very … afraid.