5 Short Questions

So today in our Operation October Challenge Group, these questions were thrown out there:

This week I want us to focus on ourselves, our happiness and our confidence! Starting off I want you to answer the questions below on a 1-10 scale (1 is bad and 10 is AMAZING):
1. How happy are you on a scale of 1-10?
2. What would make you happier?
3. Is this something you have control of?
4. What makes you happy?
5. Share a photo in the group of something that makes YOU happy! This something is a treat for you, something you take time out or would like to take time out for yourself.

I really had to think about this. And here is what I posted in response to those questions:

1. My happiness level is about a 6/10.
2. Weight loss is at the top of my list of things that would make me happy in life.
3. Much of my weight gain was brought on by medication side effects and over the 2 years I spent in recovery after my car accident. For a long time, outside factors held all the control because what was happening to my body during my recovery years was out of my hands. Now that I am back on my feet and in better health, the state of my body is now my responsibility. Although it feels like I have no control over my weight, technically I do. And it is my responsibility to do something about it.
4. My pets and my husband are the loves of my life. They fill my heart with real, true happiness.
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Fall Into Fitness With Me Right From Your Own Home

Hard to believe that the summer has come to a close and that the kids are back in school again. I’m not sure about you but this summer FLEW by for me. So now it means its time to prepare for the fall quarter. Have you set any goals for yourself for the next few months? If you haven’t, I can totally help you out with that.
My next fitness and nutrition accountability group kicks off October 3rd! If you are looking to get back on track with your fitness and health after all summer, please JOIN ME!
You select your program of choice (21 Day Fix, 21 Day Fix EXTREME, or Country Heat), follow the meal plan, check in with the group every day, and drink Shakeology.

We will set goals, share recipes and meal plans and I will post all of my favorite success tools for YOU to use! Inbox me or leave a comment if you are IN for the next round starting on October 3rd!

Requirements for this challenge: You need to purchase your required challenge pack with your program, have me as your coach, drink Shakeology and workout daily, and check in to the online group daily. I’ll be guiding you along and will always be available to you for support, motivation, questions, etc for the entire month of October.


Big Announcement!

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I don’t know if I ever mentioned this before but I was in University working on my psychology degree before my car accident. I had just finished my last semester of my 3rd year. I planned to complete my 4th year and get my psyc degree then go on to get my masters in Social Work. The accident quickly changed all of that. I basically had to come to terms with the fact that I would never get to do anything in my life that would utilize my psychology education.
But now, for the first time since, I feel that my education will benefit me. I have been offered a position with beachbody to become a personal fitness and health coach!!!! I am beyond excited about this new venture. My training begins on Monday.
But so far I’ve been learning that there’s a lot of personal development involved in this coaching business and that my interactions will never be solely based on beachbody programs. Its like I’m training to be a coach to help people find out what they need to do to be happy again, feel good about themselves, and how to turn their lives around to be as healthy as they can be. 
I have to say though that none of this would have happened if I hadn’t got a personal coach of my own a couple of months ago. And even though I’ve only just started digging into the paperwork and listening to podcasts from other coaches about their own experiences and really finding out what is involved in this, I feel excited! Scared shitless, oh yes. But I think it was meant to be for our paths to cross because she is helping me soooo much in ALL areas of my life. My confidence is improving since I met her, not to mention my health.
I have only lost 2 pounds this month and I find that very discouraging. But I feel stronger and much healthier despite that. Since the beginning of May I’ve lost a total of 20lbs. I’ve hoped for more. But I know that this 20lbs are gone for good. I won’t be gaining them back. Slow and steady is the way to go. “Turtle pace” as my best friend would call it. 
Turtle pace.
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Excited About Life

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Its amazing how much my life has changed in the past 6 weeks. I am feeling much healthier than I have in years. I have made many changes in the way I go through my days. I am managing my time better.

I have increased the frequency and content of my eating. You’d think that would cause weight gain right? WRONG! Done in the right way, this can actually INCREASE weight LOSS! The types of foods that fill my plate are so much different than they used to be. I’m AWARE of things.

I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching and setting personal goals, short term and long term. I’ve become excited about creating a future for myself.

Do you know how long its been since I’ve truly experienced feelings of happiness and content?? To be honest, I don’t think I ever have. I am slowly stepping out of my comfort zone and taking on new ventures. You can expect to see some exciting updates in the upcoming weeks!

I have to say that signing up for the 21 day challenge group back in May was the best decision ever because it sparked in me something new. And I’m loving it!

Transformations Come In Many Forms 

Aside from the obvious outer appearance
there are many other ways wecan transform ourselves when we decide to start living healthy. 

 I’ve been seeing a lot of posts online about before/after physical transformations. Amazing accomplishments!  But what no one sees is what’s changing on the inside. It’s a never ending journey as we grow to better understand ourselves & to better understand others. So many people have such low self esteem & suffer from the lack of confidence. It all stems from how we look on the outside, creating the ” I CAN ” and the ridding of ” I CAN’T “. 

Our mindset totally changes when we feel more confident in our bodies. The feeling of contentment, the fact where we all feel like we could take on the world. Transforming our abilities to see that with change, comes a happier life. 

For some, it’s more about lowering sugar levels, or relieving stress, helping with depression, extending life expectancy, or gaining energy for our children/grandchildren. Whatever change you seek, it CAN happen. The hardest part is taking that first step . 

Remember ……. 

Change helps us grow into better people ……. 

Change creates new perspectives……..

 Change is GOOD !!

Moving On 

Like seriously. There is no one else on this earth that is as accident prone as me. I’m sitting here now with my foot in a double bandage because according to the diagnosis I got while in ER today I have torn all of the ligaments connecting my heel to the arch of my foot and up through my toes. While getting in the truck I slipped and lost my footing on the step and bam. Damage done. 

But it hasn’t stopped me. I am still camping out in our trailer at the park. Hubby has the next 4 days off work so we decided to go on a camping trip. I don’t get a chance to get out much so there was no way I was going to let yet another injury keep me isolated at home. If I have to rest and keep my feet up for this to heal then I can easily do it just as well in the trailer as I could at home. At least now I can sit by the fire with my feet propped up and enjoy the great outdoors. Sooo much better than sitting on the couch in front of a boring tv watching shows that make no sense. 

It’s freezing cold out here tonight. I’m bundled up in warm clothes and a jacket and the wind is quite fierce but you know what? I’m loving it. I think I would be able to survive quite well if I had to live in a drafty old cabin in the woods somewhere. I love the taste of food cooked on the grill. A breakfast of tea and smokey, burnt toast is just amazing. 

So I refuse to let this injury hold me back. I’m trying to change my unhealthy ways of living and start filling my life with things that make me happy. Healthy, beneficial activities and nourishing foods. I’m trying to extend my lifespan. I’m working towards filling my mind with positivity so that I can eliminate all of the negative crap that has overtaken me. So I’m going to take care of my injured foot and rest on it but I’m going to do it out in the woods. While the mosquitos have their feast on my blood and my clothes get infused with smoke. Because that’s what makes me happy. 

This Is Just The Beginning 

here goes:

My name is Danielle and there are many things I could start off telling you about myself. 

Like how I have always been overweight my entire life, even as a child. I was always the biggest kid in my grade. I was bullied throughout my entire childhood for being fat. There has never been a point in my life where I haven’t fallen into the obesity category. 

Or I could tell you about how an eating disorder, Bulimia Nervosa, consumed me for 14 years and almost killed me in 2009, which led to a 9 month hospitalization at a treatment facility in Guelph, Ontario where, once physically stabilized and my heart was no longer in danger of stopping, I went through an intense recovery program that included a variety of different therapeutic approaches such as group therapy, cognitive behavioural therapy, one on one counselling and several other targeted therapies. I am proud to say that except for a few minor relapses, I have been able to maintain my recovery from bulimia nervosa to this day. Every day I fight to stay on track. 

Or I could tell you about how I am an amputee. In 2010 I was in a very serious car accident that almost took my life. After weeks in a coma I woke to find that my entire body had been mangled beyond recognition. My face was beyond recognizable. My back had been broken and I was told I may never walk again. My knees had been crushed as well as my chest cavity. But the biggest damage was on my left side. I had lost my arm and half of my breast. Never again would I ever be the same. I had a choice to make at this point. Do I lay there on my back for the rest of my life and have other people tend to my every need? Or do I clench my teeth, cry my way through the pain, and get my life back in order? I chose the latter. Now today I am back on my feet and going strong. I spent almost 2 years in physiotherapy and I can walk just as I could before the accident. I have adjusted well with only one arm and everything is second nature to me now. 

I should be happy right? I’m alive! I can walk! But there’s one BIG problem. I am morbidly obese. Through the years I continuously gained weight and in April 2016 I tipped the scales at 369 pounds. Desperation set in. My body was constantly swollen. Every joint ached all day, every day. I never wanted to leave my house out of sheer embarrassment, for fear of being seen, judged, just like what I went through ever day as a child. I feel their stares, I hear local kids giggle behind my back and I turn my eyes away from any mirrors I may see because I can’t handle to see my reflection.

This is a horrible way to live. Enough is enough. I’m only young and I’m not ready to die, especially not this way. While browsing some different websites for some hope and inspiration, one thing led to another and I came into contact with a wonderful woman who is a personal health and fitness coach and she took me on as her client. I then joined a challenge group and signed up for a program called the 21 Day Fix thus beginning my journey to a new and better, healthier me. 

May of this year has marked to be one of the most transformational months of my life, both inside and out. I have learned what proper portion sizes look like. I now know what clean eating really means. I have also learned that I can do anything for just one minute! That burning, intense, crazy exercise move? 60 seconds! And those last 10 seconds? That’s when I found out how strong I truly am.

I am starting to understand now that I am a warrior, and that I work very hard. I am fighting for my life every day. I may not change the world, but I can walk at a steady pace for 30 minutes straight now and that is a start. I am losing weight, and I am sleeping better and feeling stronger than I have in years. My goals for each day are different now and even though these goals are not always met, the fact that I even keep going is a huge improvement. I have hope now. Hope for increasing wellness. I hope for continued weight loss. I hope for a continued improvement in my physical functioning and I hope for a long, healthier and happier life.

Also, I have proven to myself (and everyone else) that small changes can make a huge difference because … *insert drumroll* … My weight has went from a mind blowing 369lbs to 354lbs in round one of the 21 Day Fix. If I could do something so hard (yet so simple), then believe me when I say that you can too. Your life and your happiness depends on it.

May The Changes Begin 

I have a feeling that May month is going to be an amazing month. Best month of this year so far! This is the month of change. It’s now my time to bloom! 

After much searching and deliberation I have hired a personal health coach/fitness trainer who has 10 years of experience in this field. I have also ordered the 21 day fix dietary and fitness program. My coach has actually done several rounds of it and has been quite successful in her journey. She’s a military wife, in her early 40’s, a mom of 4 kids, and a nurse – on top of being a personal trainer! I gave her permission to give me a lot of tough love.

What have I got to lose?? Oh wait. I have a good 200lbs plus that have to be shed. Many health issues.  Low self esteem. Yes. I do have a lot to lose. 

Watch me!

I Noticed That You Are Happy With Yourself …

…. Now if only you can teach me how to be happy about myself despite my weight then that would be fantastic!!! 

Because let’s face it…… I will never be at the weight that I want to be. I’m morbidly obese with several hundred pounds that need to be lost so unless some amazing miracle takes place then most likely I will end up dying from something caused by my weight because I have gone through simple to extreme measures to try and get this weight off but I always fail to achieve any truly significant results. I’ve struggled my entire life with my weight and I can’t help but think that maybe if I could get to a place where I can appreciate myself and respect myself for the way I am then maybe then I could see a difference in what I see in the mirror. 

I admire people who are comfortable in their own skin. Even jealous. Because I don’t know what that feels like.